Happy days die...but some survive

For someone it might be unbelievable, but I still miss my kitty. As you know, I lost it a few months ago and it seems like I'm over it. But I'm not. Not at night. I still miss my loved little kitty. I lie in my bed...and it's empty. I really feel the emptyness. I feel alone without it. Leos death was not necessary. I just loved him so much. He can't be gone..no...
Why did destiny take him away from me? Didn't it see how happy I was? How happy I was, just because I could hear his purr? It's unbelievable... I still miss him...

Happy Birthday to me

You want me
to help you
You want me
to care for you
Why can't you see
that it's not my task
to be your prop?

You tell me
you can't go on
You tell me
you're gonna break
How can I tell you
that it's not my task
to be your dustbin?

You show me
your pain
You show me
your tears
How can I show you
that it's not my task
to be your shrink?

Do you want me
to solve your problems?
Do you want me
to manage your life?
You demand too much from me
'cause it's not my task
It's just not my task

YOU should want
to help me
YOU should want
to care for me
Why can't you see
that it's YOUR task
to be MY prop?

I should tell YOU
I can't go on
I should tell YOU
I'm gonna break
I should tell you
that it's YOUR task
to be MY dustbin

I should show YOU
my pain
I should show YOU
my tears
How can I show you
that it's YOUR task
to be MY shrink?

Did you forget who I am?
Why do you force me
to care about your life
even if I can't manage my own one
You demand all this from ME
shouldn't it be
the other way around?

'I know you'
What for a stupid phrase
All you know
Is what you can see
Do you know?
Appearances are deceiving

'I know you'
No, you don't!
You know my smile
You know my words
And what's behind?
Appearances are deceiving

'I know you'
Why do you think so?
Do you believe my persona?
Do you believe my words?
But always remember
Appearances are deceiving

'I know you'
If this illusion makes you happy
I won't take it away
You're just a wannabe
who doesn't know
Appearances are deceiving

'I know you'
What for a stupid phrase
How can you know me
When I even don't know myself
I look in the mirror, thinking:
Appearances are deceiving

So much pressure
It's pulling me under
I can't move
It's crushing me
I can't breathe
Too much pressure
I'm breaking under it

Brother
Can't you understand
what I'm feeling?
Why do you
demand this from me?
I can't stand this pressure

So much pressure
It's pulling me under
I can't move
It's crushing me
I can't breathe
Too much pressure
I'm breaking under it

Grandmother, Grandfather
You don't know
what's going on
You can't see it
through my eyes
You just put me under pressure

So much pressure
It's pulling me under
I can't move
It's crushing me
I can't breathe
Too much pressure
I'm breaking under it

Aunt and uncle,
I know you wanna help me
And you do it very well
But do you really understand
What I think what's right for me?
Don't put me under pressure

So much pressure
It's pulling me under
I can't move
It's crushing me
I can't breathe
Too much pressure
I'm breaking under it

Mum
I can't help you
I can't soothe you
Maybe you do it unconscious
But you put me under pressure
with your tear-stained eyes

So much pressure
It's pulling me under
I can't move
It's crushing me
I can't breathe
Too much pressure
I'm breaking under it

There's pressure
Pressure from everywhere
from everyone
Does nobody see
that I can't stand this?
Just stop it
STOP IT!!!!

So much pressure
It's pulling me under
I can't move
It's crushing me
I can't breathe
Too much pressure
I'm breaking under it

Pressure....I can't move, I can't breathe. I'm breaking under it. Just stop it.....