Happy days die...but some survive

I'm hoping
If I lay here long enough
I'll figure out what it is I want to
Say to you
I wish that I could tell you
That I'll be missing you
Or that I still think
We could have been perfect
If I was with you

But all these things
You'll never know
I just wanna say
But I'm too afraid

So I won't say anything at all
Won't tell you
That I think you make a mistake
Or that it's you I think about when I lie awake
Every night
I won't tell you that I miss how we laughed
Or that somehow I just want this back
I am such a fool
But I can't do that to you
So I won't say anything

I've been lying here
Trying to convince myself
I would be better off without you
It's hard for even me to believe
Maybe all we needed was time
And if we met again
Things would be different in my mind

All these things
You'll never know
I just wanna say
But now it's too late

So I won't say anything at all
Won't tell you
That I think you make a mistake
Or that it's you I think about when I lie awake
Every night
I won't tell you that I miss how we laughed
Or that somehow I just want this back
I am such a fool
But I can't do that to you
So I won't say anything

It almost kills me not to say
All the things I want you to know someday
But I know that it is better this way
If I don't say anything