Freitag, 22. März 2013
Jealousy
unhappy, 21:49h
I am not the kind of girl, who sould be rudley barging in on a serious relationship. But you are not the kind of boy who sould be falling for the wrong girl.
Is it possible to know someone, even though you just met him a few months ago? Is it possible to be acquainted with somebody and to be absolutely amazed at him again and again? Because I feel that way. I met this incredible boy and somehow we got into a curious relationship. It's hard to describe. On the one hand I am so close to him and on the other hand he's just miles away. How is that possible? We trust each other. He told me about his deepest thoughts and secrets, things that happened to him in the past. And using his elusive life experience he is on hand with help and advice for me. I just feel save with him. And because he opened up to me and affords me a closer look at his soul, I really think that there is something. I can feel it. I never felt so close and familiar to someone that quickly as I do now. But it's just complicated. He wants to be a friend of mine. He is interested in my thoughts and worries, he cares for me. I know that, because he told me and has already shown it. I am sure he feels our connection, too. But there is his girlfriend. She hates me, thinks I am a bitch and all I wanna do is taking him away from her. He told me, they often have arguements about this topic. Somehow I feel like I am destroying a relationship. Before I was walking by, they never argued that much. But...is it really me to blame? Maybe their relationship is just not strong enough to handle one of them being in touch with some other girl or guy. I am not the source of their problems, I am just a symptom. Am I? If she has such a low self-esteem to consider me as a potential threat, it's not my fault. Why should I take care of her feelings? She doesn't even know me and assumes me to have sex with her boyfriend. I don't wanna consider her feelings, all I wanna do is being his friend. Not hers! I am not sure, if I want more, but if friendship is all I can get and all he offers to me, I will take and appreciate it. Because I really think between us could grow an amazing relationship we both can benefit from. But this is impossible, if she is always pulling him away from me. It's also hard for him, I guess. He loves her (unfortunately) and would never hurt her, never ever! But he also wants to be my friend - at least I hope so. Is he aware of the fact that this will not work for long? Someday he will have to make a decision... and I hope it's the right one.
I am not the kind of girl, who sould be rudley barging in on a serious relationship. But you are not the kind of boy who sould be falling for the wrong girl.
Is it possible to know someone, even though you just met him a few months ago? Is it possible to be acquainted with somebody and to be absolutely amazed at him again and again? Because I feel that way. I met this incredible boy and somehow we got into a curious relationship. It's hard to describe. On the one hand I am so close to him and on the other hand he's just miles away. How is that possible? We trust each other. He told me about his deepest thoughts and secrets, things that happened to him in the past. And using his elusive life experience he is on hand with help and advice for me. I just feel save with him. And because he opened up to me and affords me a closer look at his soul, I really think that there is something. I can feel it. I never felt so close and familiar to someone that quickly as I do now. But it's just complicated. He wants to be a friend of mine. He is interested in my thoughts and worries, he cares for me. I know that, because he told me and has already shown it. I am sure he feels our connection, too. But there is his girlfriend. She hates me, thinks I am a bitch and all I wanna do is taking him away from her. He told me, they often have arguements about this topic. Somehow I feel like I am destroying a relationship. Before I was walking by, they never argued that much. But...is it really me to blame? Maybe their relationship is just not strong enough to handle one of them being in touch with some other girl or guy. I am not the source of their problems, I am just a symptom. Am I? If she has such a low self-esteem to consider me as a potential threat, it's not my fault. Why should I take care of her feelings? She doesn't even know me and assumes me to have sex with her boyfriend. I don't wanna consider her feelings, all I wanna do is being his friend. Not hers! I am not sure, if I want more, but if friendship is all I can get and all he offers to me, I will take and appreciate it. Because I really think between us could grow an amazing relationship we both can benefit from. But this is impossible, if she is always pulling him away from me. It's also hard for him, I guess. He loves her (unfortunately) and would never hurt her, never ever! But he also wants to be my friend - at least I hope so. Is he aware of the fact that this will not work for long? Someday he will have to make a decision... and I hope it's the right one.
I am not the kind of girl, who sould be rudley barging in on a serious relationship. But you are not the kind of boy who sould be falling for the wrong girl.
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