Happy days die...but some survive

I read your text, dear cousin and I feel blue. Even if you don't believe it, but I really wanna help you. But I can't. First, there is the distance between us. Even one hour ago, I thought: "I'd like to see my cousin, again. I wanna hug her" But I can't. I would really like to visit you, to help you. But I can't. And second: I'm also lying here. Alone, crying and broken, maybe it's a diffrent reason, but it's making me unable to help you. I can't help you. I even can't help myself, so I can't help you. Don't think I wouldn't care for you, just because I'm unable to help you...
Sorry for my curious way of writing, but I'm...yes, I don't know. I just wanna say...Even if it doesn't seems that way, at the moment..but I love you and I care for you. Don't forget!