Happy days die...but some survive

There is a feeling. A feeling inside of me. I tried to ignore it, but it's getting stronger. Every minute I'm alone, or every minute I'm sad and need somebody to hold me, it's getting stronger. I even dreamed of it last night. I can't deny it. But I feel homesick to Canada. Some people might say: "Oh come on. If you were there for a year or forever, you wouldn't think that it's so great there and you would become homesick to germany." Yes I know that they're right. But, well I don't know what I really miss. Maybe it was my freedom there. Or my family. The conversations, the city, the sights, the stores. I don't know. But I think it was all. I loved it. I woke up at morning, no stress, and I decided where I wanted to go. A shopping tour? Sight seeing? Or both? It doesn't matter, because I could decide on my own. Sometimes my family took me with them and we drove to the beach, or took a nice dinner in a fancy restaurant. Beeing with them was all I needed. They helped me to overcome things, they just held me tight... and I've become more gratefull than ever.
So I miss it all. I can't explain it... I just know that everything was perfect. Really everything. I arrived there and fit in from the first moment. It was a fantastic time and it's so hard to let it go. I miss it all. The town, my family..why are they so far away. Please let me go back...I need it...please...just for a while....

I don't know you and I don't know how long you've been in Canada, but I can understand your feelings. The first time I came to Hungary one year ago I stayed just for 1.5 months, but I felt so at home here that I always wanted to go back. I found a partner there, like you had your family in Canada and we had a great time. After he broke up, I was able to come back to my Hungary. To another town, but still to the country where I love the language and the different, warm light of the evening sun. But it didn't feel the same. I still like it here, but I think it's always more about the human relationships than about the place where you are. So maybe you should get the family to visit you in Germany for a while to start to feel home here again - after you had a great time and after the sadness of their leaving is over.