Happy days die...but some survive

I don't know what it is. But today is a very strange day. At the beginning I was happy, than I get angry. After that I was happy again. In the afternoon I was depressed and now, in the early evening, I am disturbed. How will I feel in two hours or next night? Will I scream? Will I cry? Or will I be calm? I am afraid of the next time. Hard things, difficult situations are comming soon. Will I take it? I hope so. A friend told me that I should believe in me. That I should concentrate on the good things. I know that he's right. And I know that I can take it, if I want. And I want. I know, it's gonna be hard, I will be sad and want to give it up...but in the end, I know that I will take it. I know that I won't give up....because of you.
So, what's going on? Will I control my feelings soon? I hope so...damn. I'm so frustrated.... and speechles, too. I just can say, I hope that I'm dreaming, because I'm sick of this feeling I'm so mixed up, somebody help me.

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How come everything turns out
Leaving me with more doubts
I feel like I'm upside down
And I don't wanna be here
I go right, should have gone left
And I say things I should of not said
Look at me in this big mess
I don't wanna be here


Tell me how to fix this,
tell me that everything is gonna be okay
Because today it feels like
I won't make it to the top now
Don't know how to get outta this
So mixed up
Somebody help me


Everything I do
Is making me more confused
Oh it used to be easy
All I had to be was me
I'm so mixed up
Everywhere I go
Somewhere that I don't know
Oh I'm hoping that I'm dreaming
'Cuz I'm sick of this feeling
Im mixed up
Somebody help me