Happy days die...but some survive

It's a very curious substance...maybe..magical. It can do so much for you. It's dagerous and attractive at the same time. The most teenagers drink alcohol, because they wanna be cool and fit into their stupid "Wannabe"-Groups.. No that's not the reason why I'm drinking this appalling stuff...
As I said, alcohol can do so much for you. You drink it and the ugly girl next door turns into a beautiful, sexy bitch. You drink it and suddenly everything seems so easy and you think you can threw your inhibitions away and just have fun. Yes, alcohol do strange things to our minds. But that's not what I like the most. I drink it, 'cause it closes my mind. Everytime when I drink alcohol, everything seems like I'm half asleep. I'm not sure if it's real or if it's just an illusion. I'm lying on the floor, and I forget all my worries, my fears, the pain, the tears, it seems so far away and I get a feeling of flawnless... I can't remember anything I'm just lying there...and than I fall asleep anytime.
Well, the next morning is not so nice. My head always hurts badly and my stomach turns...and sometimes I can't remember the whole last night. I just know what happened, because I find the bottle of alcohol in my room....
But I don't care about the bad feeling the next morning. All what I want is to numb my psychic pain for a while and alcohol makes me forget everything. I don't really know, what it's doing to me, 'cause I can't remember what really happens in these nights but it feels so good to have the control about my pain. I know, alcohol is not the right solution, but it helps me. It's the only time I can't feel anything. And that's good...